Running along the island of sentosa, across flat terrains, up slopes, down slopes, sand and sea, it was a tough struggle, as we brace through the journey that seemed endless. Pushing through the thousands, overtaking crowds that never seemed to come to an end.
And there goes the first 3 runners, WHEW!! they were fast. Claps and screams all ard cheering for them. They were almost 5 times faster then i was.
The first 6km felt pretty fine, the distance seem to take eternity as we reached 6.5km.......... 7km.............. 7.5km........... as the sign board reads, it seem like eternity ever 500m.
Finally at the finishing line. It was an unforgettable race. *Patz* for myself and for you jas.. we did not stop. =) What a acheivement it was!!!
Jas and i both confessed to scolding each other in our minds as the race got tougher. HAHA but we both felt it was worth it. =) Off to church we went......
Thursday, August 17, 2006
-7:52 AM
Came across this article, the opposite of Psalms 23. Finally caught the geeze of what psalms 23 really meant, after reading this. Title of this is simply called
THE OPPOSITE OF PSALMS 23
The clock is my dictator I shall not rest
It makes me lie down when i am exhausted
It leads me to depression
It hounds me soul
It leads me in circles of frenzies for activity sake
And even though i ran franctically from task to task
I will never get it all done
For my ideal is with me
Datelines and my need for approval, they drive me
They demand performance from me beyond the limits of my schdule
Anoint my head with migrains, my intray overflows
Surely fatique and time pressure
Shall follow me all the days of my life
And i will dwell in the bonds of frustration forever.
Thought it was very real in living today. The question i often ask myself, during moments of reflection i take each day is what drives my life? Why do i simply do what i do? As i ponder, i realize the need for approval, especially people closer to me, the need to feel significant and special often get me to overwork and do all i can to acheive. The problem is once i have acheive it, the satisfaction last awhile. I began craving agian and again for more.
PSALMS 23
The Lord is my shepherd i shall not be in want
He makes me lie down in green pastures
He leads me besides quiet waters
He restores my soul
He guides me in the path of righteousness for his name's sake
Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
i will fear no evil for you are with me;
your rod and your staff they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies
you anoit my head with oil, my cup overflows
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Both seem to be under similar situation. The valley of the shadow of death which means depression. However Psalms 23 seems to be at ease, at rest dispite the situation. Today we are not looking for physcial rest. Sometimes a holiday, taking leave from work, we thought would give us the rest we needed, but sometimes it never does. What we are looking for today is soul rest. Rest for the emotions.
The answer why psalms 23 is so at rest, lies on the first statement. The Lord is my shepherd. Who is our shepherd today? in another words, what is driving our lives today? Approval of man? insecurities? fear? These things will never grant us rest. Just when we thought we found it, we find ourselves craving snd striving for more.
Monday, August 14, 2006
-4:27 AM
Working at SP services
Call centre
While awaiting the next phrase of my life, whether it would be blue or green for me, been sometimes since i last graduated from poly. Working few mths in church only to know that i needed to earn some cash as well. Started working here in June. Well, being paid to be the cushion for this company that cust can vent their anger on, thought i would never stay on this job for a very long time, who knows, i'm still workin here till today probably leaving end of this mth.
Here's me, caught on camera unaware as always, entertaining shouts and screams over the phone.
Working intently!!!!!!!!
It is the people that makes working fun. Meeting people of different sorts are just so fun to watch. Well we can never be close to all, but for some, friendship takes to another lvl.
This girl is prolly the most irritating girl, well TO ME! Having her around is fun to the grp. The loud noise maker. It wld have been altogether diff witout her.
Well she prolly liked this. Classic, but eeerrrriiiieee. Nah this wasn't an intentional shot. Happen to thought the first flash was over, so i turned, the second flash came.
Well, this is the other girl, friend to the one above. take with one, must also take with the other.
Ended heading to bugis
Would be missing this place, after all took a portion of where i really spent my time of the year. No just the job, but also the different people i get to interact with. In the working world, it is a complete different experience.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
-1:19 AM
21ST BIRTHDAY
The beauty of fireworks cannot be enjoyed by the eyes but warmth in the heart. thanks for being there.
It's the 13th of August, been celebrating since friday evening till now. Personally it just meant another birthday, but thanks to some special friends who has made it into a memorable birthday.
"Wanna see the fireworks at a good view without having squeeze with the crowd?" What a tricky question, does LYZ knows a secret corner in singapore that no one else knows? i followed with much anticipation, wondering along where cld this place be? picturing all ard marina in my mind where cld it be!!
My suspense came to a stop, finding myself spending my 21st birthday at marina mandrain club room at the 21st story.
A spectacular view of town area, benjamin shears bridge, fullerton area and the oriental hotel. Where people look like ants from top view. Took a drink at the bar till the rest arrived. At 9pm, we watch and took picts of the fire works. It was unforgettable.
Watching the Big plasma TV screen. A funny scene about to take place.
The beautiful fireworks from 21st stoty
Cutting the birthday cake
Presenting the gift. Feels so grand.
Well that was memorable. Not forgetting the sat evenings, with LT and SX treat from them at sakura, a game of bowling, as they wld always do on my birthday and going for a karaoke session. Was high on red wine. Thought could stay on till midnight
The SP service friends would not give way. We met around 1am at fisherman, till the wee hours of the night just drinking even more. My my.. They played a game, each have to mention what they never did b4, and if anyone in the grp did that before has to take a sip. obviously they were targetting me. I could hoewver compose myself till the end. ~ claps ~
Sunday was left with time to my family. Went to a nice hotel to eat. 21 21 21, can't believe i'm into adulthood. Challenges ahead. =) thx for everything.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
-10:22 PM
Living for the ONE THING!
Life can be such a chore, a dread, a routine. Aimless, after all the fun and laughter lies the void and emptiness. Craving for something more, for meaning and purpose.
When i think of God, i often thought so why did he made me? Only the creator knows the purpose, of an object. In this case only the creator of life would know the purpose. Is life meant to be the way it is? The thought of not wanting to live on wanders in my mind.
"... all things were created by him and FOR him." colossains 1:16
That's it. The answer, its not about me, its not about my enjoyment, my dreams, my desires. I live my life only for the reason i was created for.
To be with him. If he's in the missions field, i want to be there. If he's touching a life elsewhere i want to be there. I just want to be with him. I serve only becuase i want to be with Him. More then a NEED, i WANT to be with him.
To know him. I want to be with him so that i may know him. Isn't that what he created man? That they may share in His beauty, they may know and marvel at his love.
"God is love" 1 john 4:16.
God can't help but shower his love on someone, his nature is love. He created me that i may be an object of his love.
To please him. No not just in doing and doing more. But in being. Simply being the son to my parents, a friend to my friends, a lover to my future partner, a minister to the people with me. God said this to Jesus
"This is my beloved son whom i love, with him i am well pleased." Matthew 3:17
even before he started off any ministry, Jesus a carpenter then all he did was honoring his parents and cutting wood, doing his work as doing unto the Lord.
Tough, selfless... but that was exactly what i was created for. I want to love him. I want to be more then just a servant, that serves and serves but i want to be His friend. I want to share his heart, share his sufferings, i want to be that bride, that when the father looks down, he can be pleased when he sees me carrying my cross like Jesus did. I want to live to hear my father say "Well done my good and faithful servant"
Help me O Lord break out of my selfishness. I want to live for you and share your heart for this world. Feeling inadequete~
It all about you, Jesus
And all this is for you
For your glory and your fame
Its not about me
As if you should do things my way
You alone are God and i surrender
To your ways
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